Wax Play

I have wanted to try wax for as long as I can remember and in the past I had chickened out on doing it. I am not sure why as I love pain maybe it was the fire that scared me. I had talked to 666 about playing with wax on a few occasions but nothing had came of it until a few weeks ago. I had mentioned to him again that I wanted to try it and a few days later I went out and bought some tapered candles (yes I was hoping). 

That night 666 had me bring out the candles, as with most nights when we play many elements are included but candle wax is what I am focusing on. From the moments he told me to bring them out I was nervous. Looking back it was silly but the nervous feeling consumed me until the first drop of wax hit my naked tit.

He had me start at my tits, earlier in the evening my nipples had been pinched between two markers and were still being held tight as the wax hit them. Each drop of wax was almost intoxicating the heat was intense but far from extreme. I couldn't help but drip more and more drops on my naked tits ... the drops of wax splattering on my pale skin leaving there mark.

My stomach also had splatters on it  from waiting for the next set of instructions. It took a while but I got up the nerve to ask if I could also cover my cunt with these delicious marks as well, I was of course told yes and encouraged to do so. My nerves built again but didn't last long as the drops began to hit my cunt and turn it into art work. 

While playing with the wax on my body I had gotten so turned on that I was visibly shaking at one point. My endorphins were at an all time high and I was clearly enjoying being used. Playing with wax was an intense emotional experience that left me with a crazy submissive high that I have never experienced before. I cant wait to try it again :) I loved it!

If you look close you can see its wet :)

My First Taste

Master holds my hand as he leads me down the hall towards the hotel room. “Angel, this is what you asked for, are you sure you still want it?” He whispers in my ear. I nod my head in conformation but am lost for real words. I am in deep thought when I hear his commanding voice “SLUT!, I asked you a question” he said. This time I respond out loud while bobbing my head up and down. “Yes Sir, this is what I want. I am just nervous; I have never done anything like this before.” Master reassures me that it’s ok to be nervous, and that he loves me. As I look up, I see that we are at the hotel room door. I stare at the room number and smile “number 618 how appropriate, Sir” I say.

“Angel, there is no turning back now, let’s go inside and get started.” He says while slowly opening the door. As we walk in I look around noticing that the room is gorgeous, dark colored walls and a lush bed with tonnes of pillows. Scanning the room I see an oversized chair at the other end by the window and more importantly; I see her, sitting there waiting for us. She’s as sexy as I remembered from our previous meetings, nice body with firm tits, long dark hair, and sensual eyes that I can get lost in. Before tonight we had met up a few times, discussing what each of us wanted to happen. We decided that since this would be the first time either of us had been with another woman and that we both would be nervous we would let my Master lead the scene while watching us.

I look up at Master and he nods in approval. I am nervous yet so excited, thinking back I am not even sure how all this happened. I had never wanted to be with a girl until recently and now all I could think about was kissing and licking every inch of her sexy body. He leads me over to her and I know that soon I will be doing things with her that I had previously only imagined. As I get closer she stands up, we are staring at each other not knowing how or where to start. It’s beginning to feel a little awkward when he speaks up. “Are you two just going to stand there? Go on kiss each other.”

We both let out a nervous giggle. I take a deep breath, stepping closer to her, my hand caresses her face and I lean in. Our lips meet, slightly parted its soft and sensual. She becomes a little more aggressive as I feel her tongue slip inside my mouth. It takes me by surprise and I pull away for a second only to have her pull me back in. This time I kiss her back just as passionately, sucking on her bottom lip then pulling it towards me with my teeth. I kiss down her neck; I can smell her perfume it’s feminine and sweet, I am instantly lost in her scent. I suck on her neck roughly and hear her moan before using my tongue to trace back up her neck towards her ear, I kiss her ear lobe sucking it into my mouth and gently nibbling on it.

She slides her hands up my shirt towards my tits; I feel her hands through my bra, my nipples harden in response to her touch. As my breathing becoming more rapid I feel her hands reach inside my bra and make contact with the bare skin. I gasp and pull away only to feel a hard slap on me ass. “Slut, you are not to pull away from her, she has permission to touch you any where she likes as you do her.” I hear him scold. “Now, go ahead put your hands back on her tits, pull on her nipples if you like, she loves a little pain” He encourages. His words cause me to shiver in nervous anticipation.

She wastes no time moving her hands back inside my bra, this time pinching and twisting my nipples until I let out little whimpers of excitement mixed with pain. I look at him, my eyes pleading but he just smiles and says nothing. I stand there stiff, not sure what to do while her hands are exploring my body. I know he’s not going to let me stand there doing nothing for long, and I am not surprised when I hear his next order to remove my shirt and bra. I hesitate for just a second before slipping my shirt off and then unclasping my bra letting it slide down, slowly exposing my tits to both of them. I look down in shame; struggling with the humiliation of being with another woman and the fact that I am actually loving it. I don’t want to be half naked alone, so I reach towards her and remove her shirt and bra while she rubs my tits. She’s beautiful and I find myself wanting her even more then I had before. I take a deep breath and move towards her. My mouth opening, tongue darting out and flicking her nipple with just the tip, I take it between my teeth and tug on it. I pull on her nipple until I hear her squeal then let up just a bit, kissing and sucking on them until they harden in my mouth, her skin is smooth and supple, I love the way it feels as I fondle her. While lavishing attention on one tit, I reach up with my hand and pinch the other until I feel her trying to squirm away.

My hands are roaming all over her sexy body while I kiss up towards her neck, my lips returning to her lips our tongues meet once again. We kiss, her lips are so soft and I am lost in the moment still unsure of what to do, while my mind is racing a mile a minute trying to figure out what is happening. Master must sense my uneasiness, I feel him standing behind me his strong hands rubbing my shoulders. He leans in and whispers to me, “Angel, you need to worship her body like you would mine. Pleasure her like you would me and you will be rewarded.” I shudder in response but do not want to let him down.

I quickly think about what would please me in this situation, what I would like to have done if I was in her position. Our bodies are so close; putting my hands on her hips, I squat down in front of her unzipping her skirt and letting it fall to the floor. Her black lace panties are revealed and I gasp at the beauty of her pussy peeking through the lacy. I look behind me; Master is still watching and I can see his hard cock pushing at his jeans begging to be brought out to play. He nods his head and I turn back towards her. My hands reaching behind her, I rub her ass for just a brief second before pulling her towards me. Her lace covered cunt touching my lips as I place gentle kisses through the material, making the last one linger. I can smell her sweet scent and it’s intoxicating.

I can feel my own cunt leaking and my panties becoming soaked. I am so turned on my whole body is aching as I hear her moan from the kisses. I look up at her, her big brown eyes meet mine, they are begging me not to stop and I have no intentions of doing so. My fingers hook the sides of her panties, I inch them down, slowly teasing her by letting my fingers trace across her soft skin, the panties slowly sliding off, exposing her sexy cunt bit by bit. I lean into her, while removing her panties. Her scent is even stronger and I can see how wet she has became. This makes me smile, I am happy to know that I am turning her on as much as she is turning me on. I quickly reach out and touch her; she’s as wet as she looks and my fingers are covered in her juices. I am nervous; I have no idea how to touch her, or what she likes. I freeze, but recover quickly. I run my fingers up the length of her slit and stop at her clit letting my fingers linger there for just a moment.

I rub gentle circles around her clit but do not touch it. Her hips rocking involuntarily, she’s enjoying this but I am a tease and stop. I look over at my Master who is sitting in the chair behind us. I take my fingers from her dripping slit and bring it up to my lips. I trace them, feeling her juices wet my lips and then looking at him I slip them in my mouth sucking the juices off, letting him enjoy my first taste of a girl. Such a delicious first taste, she is as sweet as she smells and I can’t wait to lick up all her juices.

Standing back up I kiss her letting her taste what I have just tasted. Kissing her is much different then kissing him, she’s so gentle with me. Our tongues are touching but it’s so sensual nothing like I have felt before, at that instant I know that I will kiss a girl again. I push her backwards until she reached the edge of the bed our lips never leaving each other. We tumble back onto the bed together and our kiss breaks as I straddle her waist. With a leg on either side of her my hands rub her tits, I can’t get over how soft they are, I love touching them. I pull gently at her nipples rolling them between my fingers as I watch her expression change. She’s sensitive and arches her back making me pull harder. The pain must be too much for her to handle and she pulls me towards her to ease it. She wraps her arms around me smashing my tits into hers. She grabs the back of my neck and kisses me hard.

From the corner of the room I hear Master say, “Girls, don’t you think that’s about enough of that mushy kissing stuff?” We both giggle and answer in tandem “yes Sir!” Sliding down her body until my lips are aligned with that sweet cunt, I lean in and place soft kisses all around her mound. It’s shaved smooth and very soft just as I had imagined it. Her smell is divine and makes my own cunt ache to be touched.

I trace her soft pussy with my fingers, teasingly though my fingers never touching her slick slit or hard clit. She wiggles around, trying in desperation to get me to touch her where she wants but I am not ready. I am enjoying teasing her and watching her squirm. I am so nervous; I take a deep breath and move towards her sticking my tongue out licking her cunt in one quick movement. My hands go to each of her thighs pushing them further apart. Her cunt is spread wide, clit peeking out, begging to be touched or better yet licked.

Closing my eyes, my mouth is back at her now dripping slit, this time licking in an up and down motion stopping just before I reach her pulsing clit. It tastes wonderful and I can’t help but to go back for more. I am greedy and want all of her, my tongue stiffens and pushes past her swollen lips and into her sweet hole. Slowly, my tongue goes in and out, I am enjoying her scent and taste too much for this to go too fast. Her thighs tighten around my head until I push them apart again, my hands holding them where I want them to stay this time. I use her thighs to help me fuck her pussy with my tongue; my tongue pushes in and out of her slick cunt faster and faster until I feel her squirm hard against me. Slowing down I begin circling her clit with my tongue while fucking her tight cunt with my fingers.

I can hear her whimper and moan while I pleasure her. It’s such a turn on for me to be pleasing another woman like this. I can’t help but moan into her cunt while licking her clit, I have her cunt juice all over my face it’s all I can smell it’s all I can taste. Letting go of her thighs I run my hands up her sides until I reach her pert tits. I grab a hold of them, kneading and rubbing them while licking her hard clit. Her cunt juice is leaking out, smearing on my chin and making a puddle under her on the bed.

Lost in pleasing her, and don’t notice that he has moved behind me until his hands are at my hips sliding both my panties and skirt down in one quick motion. I feel the cool air on my wet cunt and then feel his fingers tracing my wet slit. I stop pleasing her just long enough to feel a pop on my ass followed by a stern “keep doing what you’re doing you dirty wet slut” from him. Just hearing his words makes my pussy spasm. I hear him speaking again “You love this, don’t you? You’re a dirty slut, your cunt is dripping, and your thighs are soaked.” His fingers are playing with my pussy and I am sure he’s enjoying his up close view of what’s going on between her and I.

I am rocking my hips enjoying his touch while licking and sucking on her. I groan into her cunt as he steps away from me again. I hear him tell me “you will get your pleasure after you are finished with her” hearing that I really go at her needy cunt. My tongue is moving in and out of her wet hole; followed by kissing and licking of her hard sensitive clit. I feel her squirm and move under me, I know she is close and I think I may want this more than she does. While rubbing her clit with my tongue I keep my fingers buried deep inside of her, she shudders under me and lets out a long loud cry. Her pussy spasms and I move down to collect the sweet juice that is flowing out of her.

Sitting up she giggles and kisses me, tasting the sweet cum that is now all over my face. She then looks at me and says “it’s my turn to please you, get up here on the bed with me.” Feeling brave I crawl up on the bed, turn around and spread my legs wide giving them both a great view of my leaking cunt. “You naughty girl” I hear her say. I just smile and lean back on my elbows as I watch her move towards me and my waiting cunt. I feel her soft lips on me and I shiver; it’s so intense to watch her lick my pussy. I don’t care that I am staring and can’t help but leak in anticipation. I know she will find out just how naughty I am but I don’t care anymore. I want to feel her lips and tongue all over my greedy wet cunt and clit. I thrust my hips towards her but she holds me down while continuing her delicate kissing of my slit. I feel her tongue dip into me here and there; she is clearly teasing me and it’s driving me insane.

I am whimpering and look over to Master pleading for him to help me. For an instant I had hope as he walked towards me but I was soon reminded that I was his to use as he gripped a hold of both my nipples while pulling upwards, twisting slightly. Arching my back involuntarily to relieve the pain I was greeted with an evil laugh. “Slut you know you can get away from me there is no point in fighting it, enjoy the pain” he says as he pulls harder making me scream. As quickly as he started, it’s stopped and he has sat back down. She’s licking up the juices that are leaking out; her skin is so soft against mine, no stubble roughly scraping my thighs. Her tongue licks up the juice, cleaning my cunt. She plants playful kisses all over my thighs, lips and clit before devouring me again.

I let out a playful moan, as she pushes her tongue into my slick hole. She is fucking me with her tongue and rubbing my sensitive clit with her fingers. I can’t think straight and my body is moving on its own. I try to get more, even beg for it but I am at her mercy, she keeps the pace just quick enough to keep me on edge but slow enough to drive me insane. I reach down to help her with my clit and she slaps my hand making me jerk it back up towards my tits. My fingers graze my nipples making me squeal out loud. I am breathing hard but just can’t get there, I am frustrated and he sees that. He lets her continue her sweet torture for just a bit longer before telling her “She has had enough, you can stop.” She lets out a sigh of disappointment but stops. She crawls back up onto the bed with me kissing me while I lay out of breath. I taste myself on her lips and am instantly turned on again. She leans in and whispers in my ear “I hope you enjoyed yourself, I know I did, let’s do this again.”

I smile and blush before answering her “of course if Master allows it, I would love to play again.” I roll over unto my stomach, hands under my chin and my legs bent up. I stare at Master and notice for the first time he has his hard cock out and is stroking it. I giggle and ask him if he would like some help with that but am surprised when he tells me no. He quickly adds that I will be helping him out soon enough.

I get up to get dressed as Master puts his cock away. My legs are shaky but I have a huge smile on my face. Standing up I am thankful that he’s there because my legs almost give out on me. He wraps his arms around me and pulls me into his chest, the only place I truly feel safe is in his arms. I smile, as I hear him tell her that she’s welcome to stay the night as the hotel room is paid for and that we will be calling her soon. He leads me out of the room and towards the elevator; I am confused when he presses the up button instead of the down. As we step inside the elevator there is another couple already in there and I am a little embarrassed by the way I am dressed and my current appearance, I know I have the just been fucked look about me.

Master pays them no attention as he kisses my neck; it makes me a little uncomfortable but it’s not long before I am a puddle of mush in his arms. The couple gets off a few floors before us and as we continue up to our floor I feel Masters hand in my panties. “Still wet I see. Are you ready for round two?” he asks. I groan and push my cunt towards his hand. No words are needed as he already knows I will do exactly as told. We step out of the elevator and make our way towards the room; he opens the door and pushes me in as I giggle. We aren’t but a few steps inside the room with the door still closing as he’s pulling at my clothes, almost ripping them off of me. Master pushes me backwards towards the bed and down onto it.

Unzipping his pants he pulls out his already hard cock and demands that I suck it. Leaning in I take it into my mouth and slowly start sucking. This isn’t what he wants, so he takes control grabbing a hold of my hair and fucking my face as he pleases. I can’t help but gag as the drool drips from the corners of my mouth and down my chin, his cock is too big for my little mouth but I do the best I can. I love the feel of his cock in my mouth, stuffed full and needing more. I am doing what I can to keep up with him, licking and sucking on his cock as it pounds in and out of my mouth. “You are such a dirty cock sucker, I love how you suck my cock” he says. I reach up and take his balls in my hand rolling them gently between my fingers. I know he’s getting close as I feel his balls tighten in my hands. Without warning he quickly slides his cock out of my mouth and sprays his hot cum all over my tits letting out a final grunt.

Looking at him I can’t help but smile, I love when he uses me like this. “Slut, clean me up” he says. I slowly lick the cum that’s dripped down his cock and onto his balls, teasing him in hopes that he will become hard again and fuck me. He knows my tricks though and has no intentions on fucking me right away. He pulls his cock away and has me roll over on to my stomach as he shoves a few pillows under my hips leaving my ass and cunt available for his use and abuse. He tells me that I will get my reward if I am a good girl. As he says this he attaches the wrist, thigh and ankle cuffs to me. Squirming I realize that soon I won’t be able to move, this thought makes me groan out loud. He ties my ankles to each corner of the bed leaving me spread wide open and then attaches my wrists to my thighs.

He moves away from me, doesn’t touch or say anything to me. I strain to see what he’s doing but can’t see where he is at. I wait having no other choice, finally I break the silence. “Sir, where are you? Please don’t leave me like this” I say. I am told not to make another noise or he will be forced to gag me. I hate being gagged and hush quickly. I don’t have to wait long before feeling the sting of his crop on my ass. I let out a scream of surprise but hush quickly realizing my mistake. As you come around to my side I look up at you pleading with you to not put the ball gag in but I know it pleases you and there is little chance of getting out of it. You push the gag into my mouth, it’s not too big but strains my jaw and I know it will be aching soon. As you finish fastening it you step back admiring the view. “I love when your gagged, you look like such a wonton slut, just begging to be used” you say.

You move behind me and pick up your crop once again. Without warning there is a series of slaps to my ass, each one making me groan. After another series of slaps I am begging you to stop from behind my gag. You know all too well that I am really enjoying this, despite my protests. You announce that I have 6 more on each ass cheek coming to me. “You will thank me for each one” I hear you say as you smack my ass. I do my best to thank you; although it’s completely jumbled you know that I am indeed doing as instructed. As the last stinging slap lands I let out a loud scream as the tears stream down my cheeks and land on the bed. Master appears at my side with a huge smile on his face. Leaning down he kisses my tears away telling me that I have been such a good girl and that I will be getting my reward as promised.

I smile and wiggle my red ass at him. Master laughs as he playfully smacks my ass; he unfastens the gag and removes it. “I want to be able to hear you moan as I pound my hard cock into that dripping cunt” he says. Undoing the button and sliding the zipper down his pants fall to the floor. His sexy cock and irresistible body are revealed, I lick my lips wanting him. He rubs my ass cheeks making me squirm and whimper out loud. I can feel his breath on my bare cunt lips long before I feel his tongue lick the length of my wet slit. Pulling away from me he spits on my pussy, it becoming even more wet, and me becoming increasingly embarrassed. Taking his cock in his hands, he teases me with it, running it slowly up and down my slit and in circles around my sensitive clit. I try my hardest to get my cunt closer to his cock but it’s a lost cause I am tied to tightly.

Frustrated I moan and then beg. “Please Master; please, please fuck your slut. Please fuck me Sir, I have been so good, Pleaseeeeeee.” As the last word left my mouth I was rewarded with his cock pushed hard into my tight cunt. His cock pounds into me, hands roughly groping my sensitive ass as he uses it to hold me tight. His hard cock is moving quickly in and out of my pussy, I want to reach back and rub his balls but I have no choice but to be used for his pleasure. My eyes close to enjoy the feeling of being used, I love it when he makes me his. His hands leave my ass and venture towards my tits. Grabbing a hold of my nipples he twists and pulls on them as he continues his assault on my sore pussy. I scream out loud and am rewarded with more twisting, pinching and pulling while he tells me what a dirty cunt I am. Letting go of my tits he grabs my hips and pumps his cock in and out of my now sloppy cunt, “are you ready for your Masters cum, Slut?” he ask. I nod my head and moan as you continue to slam your cock in and out of me, within seconds I feel your hot cum filling my cunt. You collapse on top of me breathing hard whispering in my ear how much you love me and how proud you are of me. Sliding your cock out you come around and reward me with your cum. I quickly lick and suck the cum off of your cock cleaning it well with my tongue, I absolutely love the taste.

Undoing my restraints I stretch and relax on the bed. You toss everything onto the floor, and then slide into bed next to me. You caress my body and rub my shoulders. I melt as you touch me; I love how caring you are. I turn to face you; we kiss, our tongues meet and our lips touch, these kisses are gentle and passionate. I let out a low growl and reach down and rub your balls. You pull away, “You greedy slut, maybe tomorrow but for, now we need to rest” he scolds. I sigh and cuddle up to him, burying my head in his chest before falling asleep in pure submissive bliss.

Copyright HisAngelicSlut 2010-2011

Emotional Breakdown   

Last night I had to deal with some intense emotionalness, I was playing with 666 and when it ended I felt completely drained and very emotional. It started early in the night, after a while of us not having the chance to play these last 2 weeks where we have been able to have been great, full of flirting teasing & hornyness. Our night started out with me sending him a teasing pic of what I was wearing. He loves nighties and I picked one out special for him. 

He slowly worked me up into a horny submissive frenzy, having me slap in random places & crawl back and forth to get my toys one at a time. It didn't take long for me to feel my cunt reacting, tingling (I am sure the slaps didn't help) and eventually dripping, from humiliation I am sure. When he asked me to check to see how needy my cunt was I was surprised to find out that not only did 3 fingers fit but 4 did, although it was a little uncomfortable. This is a huge deal for me as I am super tight and often have issues fitting more then 2 in comfortably. 

Very Wet

We played hard which is typical for us as I am very much a pain slut. So its no surprise that our night was filled with clips and clamps as well as tugging and slapping. He loves to make me moan and squirm in pain and if he can get me to shed a tear his cock will surely twitch. I was quite turned on with clothespins on my nipples, which after the intense play we had a few days before were still very sensitive. He also had me place my nipple clamps w/chain on my cunt lips and then let me fuck my needy cunt with my pink vibrator. 

This is where things started to change as I was allowed to play I became closer and closer to the edge. You may or may not know that I have problems cumming, and when I say problems cumming what I really mean is that I haven't ever been able to and in my mind just can't. A few days ago I had been tweeting with mollykissdaily and dlcsafts about my little problem and was trying to keep there tips in mind. It did help, I was super turned on and probably got closer to the edge then I have ever been but sadly, No I did not break the barrier. 


After calming down, the emotional rush hit. This happens every single time that I get remotely close to the big O .. its tough for me, and many times I feel like crying. This alone is enough to keep me from trying to over come my issue. I honestly don't know what it is, maybe my body reacting to being so close but denied but I really think its my submissive side showing through. I had extreme feelings of submissiveness this time. It hit me that he make me so happy and very fulfilled, but I felt at that moment that I didn't please him as much as I would like to. Its important to me to make him happy, I want to fulfill his needs. I want to make him cum every time we play and for him to be happy and pleased with me always. Of course as we talked he assured me that through my submission I please him regardless of him cumming or not but I still felt badly. 


For me this is still very hard to swallow. I have this deep need to please him and feeling that I am not is just not acceptable. I am sure that I am not the only one to have felt this way, anyone else have these issues or any idea why I am having them please feel free to comment. 

The Evil Hanger 

Earlier this week 666 had asked me to buy pant hangers and as soon as he mentioned it I had a pretty good idea what he had planed for them and believe me it was never for hanging pants :) So yesterday, while out shopping I did buy said hangers and after teasing each other back and forth all day I was quite a horny mess. I wish I could say that our night went completely smooth but my sassy and stuburn side came out and almost cost us our night. 

Even before I was told to gather my things I was completely drenched. Something about being with him just turns me on. I was told to strip and as I slid my panties down my thighs I was greeted with a dripping wet cunt. I was told to crawl to get my things (hanger, string, water bottles, butt plug and vibrator) and come back with a toy in my mouth. Crawling is humiliating to me, something about being on my hands and knees with my tits swaying just gets to me. I quickly gathered my things and came back with my vibrator in my mouth. I was told to keep the vibrator in my mouth and I wasn't in much of a position to argue. 

I didn't have to wait long to be told to attach the hanger to my tits. I was told to clamp them on deep and of course I knew this was so they didn't slip off easily. I wont burden you all with the small details but I was eventually told that I was to attach a full water bottle and let it dangle. It pulled nicely on my nipples making me breath heavy and drip even more. I have to admit that I was very nervous when I was told to attach the second one. I resisted a little knowing that the pain would be much more intense. I was told I could do it slowly, so I slowly added the weight and the pain was quite intense and a little to much for the hanger as the clips slid off, all I can say is OUCH.  It took a few times before we got the right water combo, of 1 full and the other 1/3 full to stay on. During out play session I also was told to crawl to the kitchen with the bottles attached. I have to say I think this was my favorite part of the night. It was humiliating and I loved the feeling of having to drag the bottles with my tits, it made me feel oh so submissive and so very turned on. 

After some intense play and some very sensitive nipples I was rewarded with some vibrator play and *sigh* a plug in my rear. I was quiet working up and enjoyed fucking my pussy with my vibrator while my hand bumped into my clit making me squirm even more. After playing I was still horny and went to bed still feeling the effects of it all. I am completely grateful for our time together and loved every min of it .. even being completely exhausted today from lack of sleep and having some very sensitive nipples to remind me of our fun. I love you Master and am so excited to feel your dominance and control over me again.

      

xoxo

His Angel

Its been a few days since I have blogged .. I got sick and didn't want to do anything but rest really. I am feeling better now and wanted to update here. 


I often wonder how other peoples relationships work. What are their rules and why do they go about it the way they do. I know that each relationship is different and everyone has different ideas on how things work and what they expect. 


Sometimes, when I am reading or talking to other people I think to myself that there is no way I could do what they are doing. I also find myself very envious of other peoples challenges and wonder what it would be like to do what they are doing. I wonder what types of struggles people have and if I am alone in mine. How do other people handle it. Its one reason why I am back blogging and on twitter, I need the interaction of other like minded people. 


I often find myself resisting my Master even when I know its wrong or unjust. Is it because I am ashamed of who I am and the things that turn me on. I honestly do think that is part of it, my mom preached to me about sex and I have heard her say many negative things about it. She would absolutely freak if she knew I was submissive and that not only did I not mind sucking cock but I actually love it. Don't even get me started on bondage and spanking .. ha thats just unheard of in her world. I am working hard to work past these feelings and be ok with who I am, but it certainly is a work in progress. At one time I though I was making good progress but I think in the last year or so I have took some steps backwards. 


Thankfully, I have a very caring and patient Master. He does push me, but I don't believe as much as he would like. I want him to be able to push me, its how I learn and grow but at the same time I am so scared and I fight him when I should just trust in him as I know he will never do me any harm. 


Sorry for the random ramblings of this crazy submissive girl .. Thanks for listening and feel free to comment :) 


His Angel

I am really enjoying the time I have been able to spend with my Master the last few days. I feel like we are getting back what we use to have and there is nothing in this world that could make me happier.

I am the happiest I can be when I can feel his dominance and control over me. We were able to spend sometime together last night and it felt nice submitting to him, I even woke up with a pleasant reminder and a few tiny bruises. I love a dull ache or visual reminder of my submission to him.

So, today he decided that maybe I should start reciting my mantra again to reinforce my submission to him. I have had the same mantra for all of our relationship and I am a bit embarrassed to admit that it took me a few min to remember it. Yes, its been a very long time since its been said. At one point I was saying it everyday, & I am not even quiet sure what was the cause of it stopping. Its a little sad because reciting it makes me feel close to him and thats important to me.

So today when I had privacy I went into my bed room removed all of my clothes and knelt on the floor. That in its self is enough to really bring out my submissive feelings, its very humbling to kneel naked on the floor offering myself to him. I generally say my mantra out loud 18 times (my master has a thing for the number 6 so 6+6+6=18) but because I hadn't already done it when he asked me about it today he changed it up a bit. He now wanted me to do it 36 times (18+18 = well you get the point) but did allow me to play with myself while I said it. So as I knelt saying out loud "I have given myself to (insert name), I love him and want to submit to him" I gently rubbed my clit in small circles just enough for me to feel my pussy react and become wet. As I said my mantra and rubbed my clit I could feel my submission wash over me and even now hours later I have a very submissive feeling about me.

As I finished my mantra I could feel the ache in my knees and back. I have never been able to kneel long and after not doing it for so long I could feel the stiffness but doing it for him was worth every last ache I felt. Saying my mantra use to be an important aspect of my daily submission to him and I am happy to have it back. Repeating those words over and over just reinforces to me who I am, who I belong to, and who loves me. So thank you Master for having me do it again :)

His Angel

:) I am so happy to be blogging again. My life has been turned upside down and lots of things have changed but a few things remain the same.

So, whats changed. Well I had been sick for a while and its hard to explain its not that I way dying I just felt horrible all the time and was constantly tired. I lost my job which in it self would seem horrible but was truly a blessing in disguise. I hated my job and was very unhappy there and it made me a miserable person. After I lost my job I became even more sick and ended up needing surgery. Who would have thought that a little gallbladder could have caused me so many issues.

I am now back in school. Will someone please tell me whats wrong with me, why at 27 would I go back to school. Truth be told .. I LOVE it. I am happy and super excited about a new career its something completely different then what I have done in the past. I cant wait for school to be completed and to start working again. Yep, I am crazy .. I love working!

So whats the same? I am still very much submissive and still very much in love with TheWiz666. We have been together for 2 years and 7 months. We have had lots of good times and a few not so good times. I think because both of our lives are changing so drastically right now that it has effected our relationship in a negative way but because we have always had a strong relationship built on friendship and honesty we are working through this difficult time and finally seeing the bright side of things again. I love him with all my heart and will try to work through anything to see our relationship succeed.

I want to try to write in my blog at least a few times a week. Mostly based on prompts but at times it will be random rants and thoughts or things that 666 wants me to write about and express.

His Angel